I have felt like I am in a season of waiting. I still want to have a baby and finally feel like I am in a place where I can do so after losing our first child, but the timing just isn't quite right. For several reasons (the military being the main one), we have decided to wait for a little bit. I do feel like this is the best decision for our family and for my husband, but waiting is tough. Part of me just wants to fast forward a couple of years to the season of life that hopefully includes tiny footsteps in the hallway and toys all over the floor.
The problem is, waiting can consume us. If I put all of my energy into focusing on what I am waiting for, life will pass me by. If I live life just waiting for babies, I'll miss out on the here and now. Waiting takes patience, which my husband will tell you is not my strongest attribute. Many times, waiting also becomes more difficult as we compare ourselves to others who have what we are waiting on. Sometimes it feels like everyone has a baby but me. I know that's not true, and God-willing one day it will be my turn, but comparing my situation to the mamas of tiny humans isn't doing myself any favors.
I had a moment of clarity the other day. I was chopping vegetables in my kitchen with music playing throughout the house, and Parker was giving Jenny a rib as she anxiously licked her lips. I looked around my beautiful new house and realized just how blessed I am in this very season of life. It's a beautiful season, and I don't want to wish it by waiting for what I don't yet have. These moments are passing quickly, and we can never get them back.
Today, I want to challenge you to live life for now. We are all waiting on something, and maybe that season you are waiting on will bring you great happiness, but don't forget to find the joy in today. As crazy as it sounds, I miss the period right after I lost our first baby. It was all so raw and so real, and I learned so much about myself and what I am capable of through that journey. That period is over, and wishing it away was a mistake. No more mistakes. Stop waiting, stop wishing, and start living.
We don't know how many days we get here on this earth, so make today count. Enjoy this season! Live life for now.
This picture represents the season of life we are in, and I am treasuring each moment.
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13 comments :
Amen sweet friend!! We can always be waiting for something or a season, but can miss out then on the beautiful gift of NOW. Thank you so much for your words and living this for us!
Blessings, Rebecca :)
I really needed this, thank you so much!!
Beautiful post! I've always been in a waiting season-- waiting to go to college, waiting to graduate, waiting to get a real job, waiting to get a boyfriend, and now waiting for Andy to move to Kentucky and to move out of my mom's house. I'm trying to enjoy every moment, even when it stinks sometimes, because they won't last forever.
I definitely needed this today. Thanks for this blog post. Seems like we are always waiting for something but like you said we should enjoy life in this season that we're in right now.
I could finish reading this I only got through the first paragraph but please let me be the first to say there is never a good time to have a baby. Never. Planning can put stress on a marriage and mostly the mother to be. Which then can slow the getting pregnant process. Just don't be safe and don't tip toe around the right time. Enjoy each other and if you have a baby great! Of you don't it's not in God's time just have fun because there is no right time as a civilian or as a military.
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This is all so true!! I hate wishing time away... but I'm definitely guilty of it. I know I did that a lot while Dan was still at the Academy... I just couldn't wait for him to be done so we could get married! But we did make some good memories while he was there, and that's important. I do always wonder how much more fun we could have had if we hadn't been so focused on the future, though.
GREAT POST!
I can relate. Right now I'm learning to have my contentment in my life. I have been struggling with it for a while. I forget that I am very lucky.
Oh my gosh, you have no idea how badly I needed to read that! Thank you so much for saying everything I've needed to say for so long and couldn't find the words!
I have felt this way so many times! Waiting to finish college, waiting for my husband to EAS, waiting to buy a house, etc. But having accomplished/arrived at many of the "things" I had been waiting for, I have found that there is always something else. You will never be done "waiting". So enjoy what you have now and live in the moment!
My husband and I have been married almost 7 years and we are still waiting another 3 years before having children. Sometimes it's so hard to wait, I just want everything RIGHT NOW! Plus, it seems like all military couples get married and have children within the first few years. But these last 7 years have been filled with so many other accomplishments and adventures...just like the next 3 will be!
This is something that I pray to do every day. I have a hard time with patience and just sitting still, so I need the Lord's help every day to focus on the moment. We are blessed with moments now, so we should live in the now instead of always waiting for the next thing. Enjoy the day!
So true. I agree that waiting and contentment are hard to find in military life. And Jenny is not amused.
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